I got fat! Yup I said it. I've know this for sometime and as you've read in the past I'm made bland attempts at changing thing and this too, again maybe one of those bland attempts. I really don't know. All I know is that things have to change, I've taken control of so many things in my life, why, can't I for-the- life-of-me, control this.
Things have gotten worse than better over the last few months, I've had numerous quit smoking attempts and double stress from all my duties as a wife and mother and my own person, so that adds to the mix some cells in my middle that I don't want anymore.
I get uncomfortable, my hands go numb and I just don't like what I see in the mirror. It's so weird that when you aren't looking in the mirror you can believe that all is normal in the world and no, you don't have a weight problem, pictures just add 10-20-50 pounds (all that added together plus more, I'm sure).
So here I go again. Today I gave up the cigarettes again. I will do it this time. I believe, I have the resolve and determination to make the changes I need to. I have the brain power to find answers to the questions I need help with and I definitely have the desire. So here we go again.
I will be bringing this subject up periodically to keep myself on track and you informed. I'm not sure that I will post my weight at this point, as it's embarrassingly high at the moment and well, I feel I have a bit more readership than I have in the past and that makes it all the more embarrassing. So once I'm back down to a weight that I was pushing those numbers out, I will reveals those dreaded numbers. Here we go.....