It's the socialization thing again. I'm hanging out at home and not going anywhere, secluding myself. Well, not secluding myself as much as just not having any ambition to go hang out with my friends. It's been awhile. I'm not sure why I've been like this.
Maybe I feel different, maybe I just don't have anyone to talk to, or I think people don't understand me or I've just something. I just don't seem to connect with anyone anymore but it's most likely just me and my bloody changes I'm going through. My emotional and psychological change.
Life can be so confusing because I can't fix problems over night for myself or those I love and I've never been any good at saying the right thing at the right time. I can't help those I love but I can try to be there, I'm really trying but I get so lost in it and don't know how to act in situations, how to be supportive when I'm still struggling with my own life choices and realities.
Sorry, just feeling weird tonight and missing what I used to have, the friends I love and miss and don't know how to connect with anymore so this probably doesn't make any sense.