To be perfectly honest, I'm not sure what to write, how to write, why to write. I'm tired and depressed. I've lost my father, he succumbed to cancer on the 3rd. I wrote this big long post about it all but I think it's more of a private thing I will keep to myself. I've been terribly broken up and I miss him so much and I don't know what to do with the feelings I'm having. How long it enough to feel okay? To not want to talk about him? To cry? To be sad? I guess I'll continue to mourn in private. It's just so hard some days.