I've moped around long enough trying to figure out why this and why that. Life is life and I choose to be happy and I'll only worry about those things in my life that are important and matter and those who feel the same way about me.
I cant' read minds and figure out the world's problems unless I have information and if I don't have the information then I can do nothing about it. I'm tired of trying so hard to be what everyone wants me to be. I can only be who I am and that's just as complicated, I'm moody and quiet but I love and I try to be honest and I'm a good person and I love unconditionally and I don't judge others, I look at everyone as equals. I have made some changes recently, I've wanted to get back to being me, so I started volunteering again. I'm helping with this summer's Gathering. I'm pretty excited about that and I've already booked off time so I can enjoy and help out. It should be fun.
I've started writing in my journal again, I've spent the last few days reading through it and boy what an eye opener for me. Lot's of real cyclical stuff in there, yup, I'm ready for change.
I'm hoping too that the writing will help me focus in on my routines and healthy lifestyle change so it's not so stop and start and stop and start again. I've never given up on it, it's just a hard thing to keep focused on. I think the journal will help keep my focused and it will allow me to get my feelings our there and work through things on paper that I haven't been doing in some time.
Yup, I'm ready for change. I can do it, it'll just be one day at a time.