Tuesday, September 22, 2015


I love reading quotes. I find inspiration in them and when I read a quote if it resonates with me, it helps. I don't claim they are about anyone but me.

Saturday, September 19, 2015

The reality is that everyone is different, everyone goes through things differently. Sometimes when two people are in a their own difficult times, they just might not mesh anymore and they need to go their separate ways It's sad but it happens.

I have forgiven myself for all the mistakes and decisions I have made because I did the best I could with what I had. I will live my life as best I can from now on!

Friday, September 11, 2015

Handsome Boys!

They are growing up so fast. Just the difference between the pictures yesterday and these ones are amazing to me. I took these pictures in early August.

Thursday, September 10, 2015


Even from just a few months ago, the boys seem like they have grown so much.


I was definitely taken in at a young age, I believed in love. I believed in finding true love, finding the one. The whole fairy tale. Love never happened like that for me. Was was never petite and pretty or confident. I fell in love with the first boy who was interested in me. I was still fairly young when I met my husband. I was pretty codependent. I didn't know who I was yet! I sometimes still don't. Life is a such a journey. 

Life really doesn't happen the way we think it will. I may have stopped believing in fairy tales. I do believe in love. I think that almost anything can be resolved. I think that almost anything can be overcome. I fall more in love with my husband as time passes. We are making it work and loving each other. As I grow as a person, and find my footing and love myself more. I will be a better person.

I wrote this on my wall the other day:
I see so many posts about how a man should be this or a woman should be this. Bottom line in a relationship, it takes two people to make it work and it takes two people for it to fall apart. Take responsibility for your actions and work to improve yourself for your current relationship or next relationship. Only you make you happy and that is who you should work on. You! If you want a relationship to work then let go of your ego and show that person you love that you actually love them and want it to work. This is aimed at no one in particular and I'm am not perfect in any way but the more I love and take care of myself the more I can love and take care of my family.

As I've said many times, I don't know how to act around people.
I don't always know the right things to say to people.
You will never read this but I have to say sorry.
I have to say I wish I had been a better friend.
I wish that I didn't act so immature and knew how to communicate.
I think that I probably do know how to communicate but I hate conflict.
I was scared all the time of losing people instead of being myself.
I'm so very embarrassed by my actions.
I wish I had been a better person and a better friend to you.
We loved each other and wanted to be friends forever.
I took these things to heart.
Then my heart was broken and it was not your fault.
I couldn't see that I was the one broken.
I didn't see right for a long time.
I was jealous I think and I'm sorry.
I was hurt by others and I felt hurt by you.
But ultimately, I should have trusted and loved you still.
You didn't hurt me, I hurt me because I didn't think I deserved love any more.
I walked away and I hid and I was embarrassed by my actions.
I'm sorry for hurting you this way.
It has taken years for me to come to this point.
To realize the wrong I had done.
Way too late. Damage is done.
I hope that in another life you can forgive my ways and we can be friends again.
I miss you so very much.
You have moved on and I so hope that you are happy, I really and truly do.
I'm so truly sorry for hurting you.
Thank you for helping me grow up!