Sunday, February 25, 2007

Starting tomorrow....

I do my first weigh-in. Monday's will be my day. I usually weigh myself everyday but Monday will be my reporting day. I have to dig out my eating journal too. I'm still organizing a bit here so hopefully by the end of today I will have all my ducks in a row.

I've been drinking lots of water and trying to eat right but snacking on unhealthy food still, I have to quit that.

I plan on exercising tomorrrow. I can't do pilates yet because I did this test where you lay down and do a bit of a sit up and then you can tell if your muscles are back together after a c-section. It's usually 6-10 weeks for them to be back together, mine were yet. So I will do cardio and some yoga moves maybe, things that stay away from my abs for now. I just have to get back in the habit again.

The last few days have been -47°C, too cold to do much except huddle under a blanket and watch tv. Well, not under a blanket that makes it sound like our house is cold and it's not. We are quite warm in our house.

My biggest obstacle for losing weight is my eating. I'm addicted to sugar. I hava a pop everyday, I've been craving chocolate everyday and usually eating a chocolate bar or two. It's not been good. I've had a problem with eating for as long as I can remember. I was part of the empty plate club. I looked for way to hide my food when I didnt' like and because of the flack I got for eating sweets I learned to hide that as well. I realized that I have been doing that again, hiding the food I'm eating because I'm embarrassed by it. If I go out and buy a chocolate bar, I'll eat it before I get home or hide it when I do. It's really sad to realize that I'm doing this again.

My other problem is portion control, we were never allowed seconds growing up. Now when my children don't enjoy something I don't make them eat it. We do have a two bites run but if they don't like it after that then I won't make them it eat. But if they do enjoy something and would like more, they are allowed. I can't limit or deny or force my children to eat. I can't pass on this eating disorder that I have. Yes, I'm an overeater!

I do worry about my children sometimes, if I am doing the right thing or now. I know that I sometimes don't choose the healthiest of snacks for them but I am working on it.

So tomorrow I'm back in full swing. I see my doctor Thursday and hopefully that will go well. I still cannot believe it's been 6 weeks since I've had a my c-section and baby. I'm feeling really good for the most part. I have some phyche stuff going on some days but I have a handle for the most part and yes, I'll be talking to the doctor about it.


Anonymous said...

A solution for the "empty plate club" is to use a smaller plate. This way if you do empty it's a lot less food. Plus it can trick you into thinking you've eaten a lot. I do it sometimes and I do think it helps!

Siuan said...

i do this as well a lot of the time & it does help sometimes

Jennifer said...

You can do it!!! I am with you, I am still sore in my legs where I injured myself but I'm trying to get back into the chair exercise I have been doing for the past 4 weeks!

Good luck!!!