Monday, September 29, 2008

Crazy little thing happened....

I got fat! Yup I said it. I've know this for sometime and as you've read in the past I'm made bland attempts at changing thing and this too, again maybe one of those bland attempts. I really don't know. All I know is that things have to change, I've taken control of so many things in my life, why, can't I for-the- life-of-me, control this.

Things have gotten worse than better over the last few months, I've had numerous quit smoking attempts and double stress from all my duties as a wife and mother and my own person, so that adds to the mix some cells in my middle that I don't want anymore.

I get uncomfortable, my hands go numb and I just don't like what I see in the mirror. It's so weird that when you aren't looking in the mirror you can believe that all is normal in the world and no, you don't have a weight problem, pictures just add 10-20-50 pounds (all that added together plus more, I'm sure).

So here I go again. Today I gave up the cigarettes again. I will do it this time. I believe, I have the resolve and determination to make the changes I need to. I have the brain power to find answers to the questions I need help with and I definitely have the desire. So here we go again.

I will be bringing this subject up periodically to keep myself on track and you informed. I'm not sure that I will post my weight at this point, as it's embarrassingly high at the moment and well, I feel I have a bit more readership than I have in the past and that makes it all the more embarrassing. So once I'm back down to a weight that I was pushing those numbers out, I will reveals those dreaded numbers. Here we go.....

4 comments:

preTzel said...

Hey,

Slow down. Take a deep breath. Dieting is not just losing weight sweetie - it's all about a lifestyle change. It's not easy. You have to remember that those pounds didn't happen overnight and they aren't going to come off overnight. It's going to take a lot of hard work, dedication, and believing that *you* are worth it. It's got to be for you and about you and nothing and no one else. One day, one step, one pound at a time. Do not set a goal that is high. Start out with just 5 pounds lost at a time and go from there.

If you drink diet pop - get off it. It can actually add more weight than regular pop. Tea and water is all I drink now. Even when we go out to eat it's usually a tea or water.

You can do this!~

Amber said...

Take it one day at a time and do it the smart way. The slower it comes off, the longer it'll stay off. ITA with the above and it being more about a lifestyle change. YOU CAN DO IT!

Jenny said...

After my son was born, my third child, I weighed 118lbs. I am now 200 and am not sure how it happened! I obviously can't use having kids as an excuse!!

I am trying the lifestyle change and not expecting miracles. I also, have to do something.

Don't give up!!!

Renée said...

hey ((you)) I know how hard it is. Cigarettes hurt, they burn, they stink and they keep you coming back for more. My husband and I quit for good using the advice and mindsets of whyquit.com

You can do it D! Set small, very small goals for yourself. 5 lbs, 3 lbs, 4 lbs. Don't overwhelm yourself.

You can do this!!