It's been awhile. Gosh, I don't even know where to start.
If I'm honest I'll tell you not every thing is perfect but I'm happy. It's been a long time since I've been in that place. Nope nothing is perfect, I'm not consistent with any of my changes and I work at it daily. I've set up a desk and chair in my room to work at, journal, track, that kind of thing.
Life is busy and I'm not totally back to my old self, I don't clean like I used to. I'm more tired and can't keep up with my life but I try and I don't beat myself up over not getting it all done. But the me that was, the person I was feels back.
I'm learning to live with all the changes in my life, accepting the consequences of my actions. I've been doing a lot of soul searching and working with my life coach has helped me to put things in perspective. I love it.
I went away for our ladies retreat. It was the best one yet, so relaxing. We enjoyed a workshop called Action motion, it was amazing. We started each day with meditation and yoga. Then we did exercises with our voices, bodies, movement and conversation until the end result of our action motion story. Wow, it was amazing. There were 17 beautiful and amazing women at this retreat. It was two days and then our down time was just us girls chatting, hanging out, playing games and a having fun. So relaxing and peaceful. We felt closer than ever afterward.
I've had the summer off and I'm down to two weeks until I start work again. We've done tons of things around the house and yard and I'm still not done. We've gone on adventures with the boys. We've stayed close to home but that is okay. I've done some quilting and I've picked out some fabric and patterns for some new quilts. I want to finish a few for my girlfriends. They've been so supportive and fun for me that last few years.
Sure I dip down into my dark and scary places sometimes but then I come right back up. I don't stay there for long anymore. I'm learning to love myself. And I'm awesome!