Lately

Finding the time to write and everything in lately seems to be too much. I had my last session with my wellness coach and I started a local program to help with my diabetes, since this is my next goal to moving forward. Really watching my blood sugars, tracking my numbers and getting my eating even more under control. It's a six week coarse and I work with the trainer I worked with in the spring as well as my wellness coach again.

My fitness goals are to be active everyday, now with the weather change and the pool being closed it's harder to get outside. I'm already feeling the effects of less sun, so I started popping that Vit D. I'm to tray one new activity at least 3 times before the six weeks is up, so I'm going to give the women's volleyball a try. Some of my friends go, so I'd like to try something new. Finally I need to push myself more, out of my comfort level. She is also having me make myself a plastic calendar to I can schedule all the important things in my life. So I will do the activities that I plan on. When I go to the gym, times I write, when we have movie or game night with the kids, walking the dog, everything.

For food, I'll be looking at meal planning, so we are more prepared and are eating healthier. We do pretty good most of the time but I'd like to be more prepared for the kids lunches and remembering to pull something out of the freezer.

Sometimes I feel so alone and feel like I have this huge monumental task ahead of myself. I know I'm headed in the right directions and that things take time but still, ya know. At least my frame of mind doesn't let me stay in that negative place too long these days. For that I am thankful.

The sun trying to shine through. 

 There was a cloud that was perfectly shaped like a heart, it was hardly there by the time I got the camera, between the two closest trees.

 We had a wonderful and much needed time ladies getaway and I'm very thankful for my friends.

I miss so much about my old life but maybe there is no going back. It makes me sad sometimes. Sometimes I imagine you reading my blog. I have so many things to say but I know they fall on deaf ears now and I don't know how to move on. I think I will always be immature and emotional when it comes to you. I don't know why. And whatever you think, I do wish the best for you and a happy life. Happy Birthday.