Saturday, January 20, 2007

Saturday Morning Update

Well, it's been a week since my third son was born and all is well. He's beautiful and good and just perfect in my eyes, as are all my sons until they turn 2! They they turn into monsters. Okay, that's not true. I have good kids, they are just trying at times but I love em'.

We are trying a no tv weekend. Already my two year old is asking to watch Blue's Clues, only a few months ago he wouldn't even care if the tv was on and now, he wants BC's 24/7. A bad habit we instilled. One thing that we wanted to steer our kids from was tv and games and it's gotten harder as they get older especially for my 5 year old. I don't know if his behavior lately is typical of a 5 year old or we've done something lately to change his attitude. Mainly having another baby.

The good news is though I'm not sick and tired all the time now and I can practice my good parenting skills again. I know not a good excuse because my son has suffered because of my neglect in that department but I can make good on it now and make a change for the better.

There seem to be so many things I need to do lately and there never seems to be enough time in the day. But again since my energy is coming back and a week into having a third child I'm on the road to recovery.

My biggest problem is that I have such a hard time asking for help, even with my husband. I know that I can't do the things I used to for a little while. I can't move furniture around or carry loads of laundry or bend over very easily. But I can fold laundry and sweep the floor now, so that is a plus! Silly how these things affect my life. Yesterday, the outreach worker came over and dropped off a frozen lasagna, salad fixin's and a loaf of bread. We had that for supper, it was quite good for a frozen food product.

Dh has also decided he wants to fire me from doing his books now and hire the local accounting place to do it since I'm so busy with three kids and everything. In all honesty, I'm pissed. I feel that if he does that I will be a failure somehow. I want to continue to do the work. Even if I am way behind right now. I can do and I know I can. But then again I'd have more time for writing and not feel guilty about taking a course or workshop. Maybe it's my own ego that is sore, the fact that I can't do everything just drives me crazy.

On top of that, my hormones are on overdrive sending me for the kleenex box a few times a day. Silly things set me off too! So things are on a bumpy road right now but they'll get better.

I'm itching to exercise, who would have ever thought that would be me. I miss pilates and walking at a good pace. I'm going to see if the rec department still does walks at the school gym some nights. I could just through on my ipod, runners and go walk for 40 minutes or something. I miss lifting weights and using the little equipment that I have. I can't wait. Just a few more weeks and I hope I can get back to it.

Healthwise I'm feeling good, I thought I had a UTI and I might have but I'm feeing better and they couldn't give me antibiotics anyway because the ones they had would affect the baby or I'd have to put him on formula for a week while I pumped off the bad stuff. I hate pumping with a passion so hopefully plenty of water and cranberry juice have done the trick or it was just the after effects of surgery that I didn't recognize. Who knows but it's okay now.

So now that I'm feeling better I'm slowing tackling my house and the books again. I also need to study and write one exam before the end of the month. Things are moving along and looking up for the most part.

SmartGuy isn't even battling the cleaning of his playroom today like he normally does. He knows now that if his behavior doesn't change, he won't get the privilege of watching his beloved tv. His little brother on the other hand is not getting the listening thing quite yet and hopefully over the course of this next year, we can see some significant changes in our family dynamics.

Well, the screaming has begun so I have to sign off now.


Amber said...

I can't believe it's been a week already... UNREAL!

I'm glad that it's only a week afterward and you're already feeling better! AND that's great news that you have the want to do Pilates, walk, and lift weights. YAY! Hopefully you'll heal quickly and will be back doing your normal things very soon. :o)

IKWYM about neglecting the kids during pregnancy... It's hard to be a good momma when you feel so poopy! I'm sure it'll be forgotten though. ((((Hugs))))

Jennifer said...

You gotta take it slow...I know it is hard to not be on top of things, but you just gave birth! A week or not, you can't push it! Please be careful my friend!

Have you talked to your DH about how you feel about him hiring someone to do the books?? I can understand how you feel too.

I'm sorry you are feeling this way...((((HUGS)))) and if you ever want a call let me know, okay??