Wednesday, April 02, 2008

Hump Day

I don't know if this will make you feel better but if I could and my husband agreed, I'd have another baby. If wishes were rainbows....I'd have a million of em'.

Things have been going well. I got some sleep last night but one night doesn't change a habit or a cycle. I'll have to be doing to bed early for awhile. Last night was turned out the the light at 10:40 after reading for bit. I love reading in bed only problem is that I can stay up very very late if I read in bed, so I made the conscious effort not to read forever. So I woke at about 6am and I stayed in bed awake lying there just enjoying my time. I didn't have to get up and rush around, i could lie there for awhile and I did. Just before 7 I got out of bed and started the whole morning ritual, hubby made breakfast scramble eggs and hash-browns.

The eggs were nummy, very good. We've been trying to eat healthier and so we've been eating Omega 3 eggs and well, they taste fishy to me. So we got some free range eggs and that is what we had this morning. The eggs tasted so fresh and well...tasty! I love them.

I'm very happy to say that my youngest son is now sleeping from 8pm to 5am everynight. Now I have to take advantage of that sleep cycle and get my own sleep. I'm working on it.

Yesterday, I went to see my nurse. Yes, my nurse. She's wonderful, my nurse. She's helpful, my nurse. She's supportive, my nurse. She's a good listener, my nurse. I just love the nurse I've been seeing with the weight clinic. I hadn't seen her in about 2 weeks, she's been off and other things so I was very glad to see her. I've been having a bad week not keeping on track, losing sleep, not exercising, snacking and by obsessed that maybe I have Tubal Ligation Syndrome.

The one good thing about this meeting is we just talk, to see where I'm at, she doesn't pump me up and tell me to exercise and eat right while pointing her finger at me, no she listens and works on a plan with me, gives my suggestions and ideas and tells me I'm doing good. This keeps me motivated or gets me back on track. So she said for right now I need to concentrate on me and getting my me time and get some sleep. So I went to bed an hour earlier.

So yeah, that's the other thing that keeps messing with my brain. I keep thinking my tubal ligation is messing with my body and it's functions. I'll spare you the details as I do feel better after talking to my nurse. I am kicking myself in the butt because usually I'm very on top of things and check on resources of information for anything I need to know. I knew what I needed to know before I took sex ed in grade 7, when I got pregnant for the first time I devoured books on the subject pregnancy and after the baby was here. So why did I just take what the doctor told me at face value and not do my research? This is why I'm so mad at myself right now and what's done is done. It would cost me $3000.00 to get a reversal and I don't know how prepared I am for this but if I continue to have issues that I can't explain or that bother me then I may have to do it, for myself.

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