Friday, July 04, 2008

Best laid plans...

Today I'm taking a break from exercise, yes, after one day. My inner thighs are so sore today from all the lunges and squats i did yesterday. So tomorrow I'll do them again and I'll just continue walking as best i can.

I was up at 7am this morning just not enough time to exercise. Getting myself and the kids ready takes up so much time and we are continually late. I need a better system, I need to be more organized. I can do this, I know I can. i can be that perfect mother who does everything right! Well, at least I hope I can. Hubby says we'll never be perfect but at least we love our kids and treat them with dignity so at least they'll love us when we get older and not hate us. That's a good thing! Let's hope he's right!

I'm too much of a worrier when it comes to my kids. I remember what childhood was like, especially for those that feel  different. But who didnt' feel different in school right? I don't want my kids to go through it, it sucks and I know they have to experience whatever it is that they will experience but shit! I hate it!

So we what we can and hope for the best.

I really wish I was outside right now, it's beautiful out and I'm stuck in this cold air condition office and have nothing to do. i usually try not to write at work on this but there is nothing for me to do, I'm all caught up.  I guess I coudl put those maps away!

So I'm rewriting my stories, study my fitness and nutrition stuff and reading a great book. This is what occupies my time between work and kids and housework, so not much gets done anywhere.

I'm definately feeling pulled in several directions lately from all my self created obligations. So I'm going for a beer tonight with a friend and I might drink to much and smoke too much but I'll be relaxed!

Then tomorrow is a new day and I'll go for a long walk, clean my house yet again and take some stuff to the free store. Oh yeah, if you want to come by and take some stuff from the pile for the free store stop by tomorrow morning and take what you would like. I'll have a free yard sale for my friends. All kinds of stuff, a little of everything.

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