Coherent Thought

I think the biggest obstacle to my staying focused and on track is learning to think of myself first. I have a beautiful family of all boys and sometimes they just rule my life, in fact, they rule it almost all the time. I mean, come on I have a 7 year old, 4 year old and almost 2 year old, very needy stages. My quiet time is for me to do nothing really. To sit and watch TV and zone out, I don’t even read my beloved books as much. At the same time, while I'm recharging and getting a peace of mind, what good is it really doing for me? Not much.

For me it's not about the scale, I use the scale to keep on track to see whether my progress is still working, if not then I can tweak it. My biggest problem and where I should elaborate on, where I feel like a fraud is that saying I'm making changes and not staying on plan because basically, I don't have a plan. I say okay I'm following the Canada Food Guide recommendations but then not track my food, or I'm going to exercise but don't.

So I've been doing some thinking about food planning and realize that I really don't know how to plan my food and I've been wanting to for awhile, so I'm going to work on that. Menu planning and working on writing in my food journal and finally deciding if I want to do calorie counting (which seems like too much work) or continue on with the CFG.

Exercise: my plan is to workout everyday -6 days of cardio and 3 days of strength/circuit training and try to do my pilates or yoga at least 4 times a week. It will take some work but I'm going to work on getting back to my sleep schedule of in bed by 10pm and up at 5 or 6am.

This may seem like a lot of work to some people but my frame of mind right now is that this is for me. This process and lifestyle change needs to be done for my health and my peace of mind. I have to make this change right now and I'm going to work hard on it every day. This isn't for my family; this is about me and for me. I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired. I'm tired of puffing my way up the stairs or down the road (okay it's not that bad but if I continue the way I am then it will be). I really feel the weight around my neck and throat now and it really bugs me. Stuff around my neck always has bugged me, I can't wear a scarf or anything tightly wrapped around my neck because it just isn't comfortable for me.

My focus for this New Year needs to be on me and my health and I will be making the changes.

On January 4^th I’m starting a ‘Biggest Loser’ challenge over at 3fatchicks.com. We will check in probably every day or couple of days, weigh-in once a week and I set my goal at losing 30lbs. I know it’s a high number but I’m going to go for it. The challenge is until near the end of March. I’m really looking forward to this change and working hard and feeling good.

As for this blog, I will continue to chronicle my daily happenings, my successes, failures and I’ll try to remember to post about my boys. It’s been awhile since I’ve done that. Okay, the kids are calling me so I’d better sign off here. I tell ya, they rule my life.