Awkward!!

I'm one of those people who is socially awkward, no seriously, I never say the right thing, I don't even know what the right thing is, I leave long, agonizing silences that trip people up and I avoid eye contact. Yes, that is me. I don't know how I got this way. I'm thinking because I was shy and very self conscoius growing up that I just didn't talk right.

It's weird because I have a huge family on my mom's side. We had family over all the time, I good with family and of course my few good friends but other than that I stammer and stutter through social situations. I try, I really, really do. I have gotten better over the years, as my confidence has built up. I think a big part of that is my Hubby who really does wonders for my ego.

I still have a problem with phones though. I have  a hard time talking on the phone with pretty much anyone except my mother, father, brother, husband and kids. So when I have to talk to someone over the phone instead of sending them an email or some online means, I get so nervous.

Right now I have three calls to make I have a service I need to change and one I need to cancel and I have to call about dental work that I need done. Three very important phone calls that I keep putting off just because of how I am. I know I will eventually make them in the next couple of days but still that nervous feeling in the pit of my stomach is still there!