Putting myself first has always been a problem for me, I do things for others, make sure that everyone is fine, everyone has everything they need. I do too much for everyone else and not enough for myself sometimes. I have to start saying no and just do the things i need to do to take care of myself.
Right now, I really need to stay home and be around my family but I also need to get out of the house. Take tonight for instance, I could go to craft night but I'd rather stay home and watch The Biggest Loser and get on my elliptical. Tomorrow night need to attend a baby shower but also have my writing workshop and I need to go to both, so trying to fit them in. Thursday I'm out of town for a few days. I'm attending The Nation Conference for Learning Disabilities in Whitehorse. I'm attending so I can go to some workshops on Advocacy. Advocacy is important for me to take because I have to be an advocate for my children. It should be an interesting course but I'll be away for 4 days and I hate being away for that long.
I know the boys will be find and Hubby can manage but it just seems like such a long time. I'll miss them. It will be a nice break for me though but I just had one. When will the guilt ever go away?