Snowbound in the Yukon

I have to admit that right now I'm struggling. I'm having a lot of stress in my personal life and have gained back 5lbs. I'm finding it very difficult to deal with, I'm trying to give myself slack but it's just not working. My brain is in the gotta lose but can't seem to do anything about it or anything at all. I'm really trying to get back in the game.

Putting myself first has always been a problem for me, I do things for others, make sure that everyone is fine, everyone has everything they need. I do too much for everyone else and not enough for myself sometimes. I have to start saying no and just do the things i need to do to take care of myself.

Right now, I really need to stay home and be around my family but I also need to get out of the house. Take tonight for instance, I could go to craft night but I'd rather stay home and watch The Biggest Loser and get on my elliptical. Tomorrow night need to attend a baby shower but also have my writing workshop and I need to go to both, so trying to fit them in. Thursday I'm out of town for a few days. I'm attending The Nation Conference for Learning Disabilities in Whitehorse. I'm attending so I can go to some workshops on Advocacy. Advocacy is important for me to take because I have to be an advocate for my children. It should be an interesting course but I'll be away for 4 days and I hate being away for that long.

I know the boys will be find and Hubby can manage but it just seems like such a long time. I'll miss them. It will be a nice break for me though but I just had one. When will the guilt ever go away?