Tuesday, January 15, 2008

I miss my kids a lot now that I'm back at work. It's really nice to have the break but I miss my kids. Really! The mornings and evenings seem so rushed to get everything done and just not enough time to do stuff. They are tired and cranky and off to daycare they go. I go at lunchtime so I can nursed BabyBoy and he's fine but it's big brother who doesn't go for a nap and won't just rest his body with everyone else and stays on the baby/toddler side who sees me and has a little nervous breakdown. He gets all weepy and upset when I tell him i have to go back to work. It breaks my heart!

To see him thinking about it and then his eyes get all puppy doing looking on me and then get red and I know he's going to cry and then I get all weepy seeing him like that. It just does not make it good! Of course today though Baby Boy cried when I tried to go today. So now I feel all guilty but not really. It's hard to say it the right way and make it sound right, I miss my kids but I'm glad to be at work.


Jozet at Halushki said...

Oh, I understand perfectly.

I can't explain it well, either, but as much as I adore them and feel bad when I leave them, I do need the break.

I also know how they can tug at your heart with just one look.

Jennifer said...

I can barely hold it together with one child...I can't imagine how you do it with three. It's so hard. Danielle tugs my heartstrings on a daily basis and it's rough. She will hate it when I return to my new job on Monday- she likes having me there in the mornings to help her get ready. I hate not being able to do that, but in order for me to be home before she gets home from school I MUST work a really early shift.

It's hard balancing out work and home, isn't it??