All my married life I've want to be a stay at home mom. Yup, I do. It just hasn't been possible and I don't know that it ever will be but I dream.
I dream of being with my boys all the time. See my theory is that they would be perfect angels had I been a stay at home Mom. I wouldn't be so stressed about money and I wouldn't be so stressed about being away from them all day long and I would be a perfect Mom. I wouldn't yell, I wouldn't get stressed out by my messy house, or hate cooking in my kitchen. Things I used to love doing. I loathe spending time in the kitchen or cleaning and organizing my house now. It's odd.
Although, I do admit that I've probably been depressed since I had Mica but things are turning around for me again. I do find that my emotions and my happiness are cyclical and I'm trying to change that. There are so many things that I want, so many changes I want to make. I have to plan. Planning is keep and I'm not so good at it. So I have to change my way of thinking. I'm a great planner! I plan everything! I can do it!
On my quilt, I've decided that I'm going to use the jelly rolls my Mom brought back for me. I'm not going for perfection but all the colors should go together. I've been trying to square up my quilts but I'm finding that I really have to have a perfect seam on those strips. I've resewed a couple of them and they are all fairly close but I might end up having a 1/16 seam on some it seems. Not sure what to do there because I really was careful when sewing those strips.
The binding should be interesting too! But I know I'll get it.
I think I'm going to go to the City this weekend. Just do a round trip in one day with a friend and get some groceries but I need to also get some batting for my quilt too! I'm really excited about working on and finishing this quilt. While in Whitehorse I'm going to look for a new sewing machine as well, not sure that I'll buy one but I'll take a look around.
We are all almost completely well in our house, I'm very excited and happy about that but, of course the weather has turned cold again. It was beautiful out while we were sick at home this past week.